UGHH

Nov. 15th, 2011 12:02 pm
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Can I just take a minute to moan and groan? You guys don't have to read this. I just need to rant for a bit.

Basically, I feel like everything in my life has been royally sucking lately. I hate to complain about anything, mostly because I generally don't like listening to other people complain unless they have a good reason (people in my age group usually don't), but life has just been screwing me over again and again, and I just need to get it out, you know?

It started out that, DURING MID-TERMS WEEK, I got fired from my job of four years because the new manager doesn't like me. After that, I fainted in my bathroom. After that, I found out that my grandmother died-- that's a really complicated story, and basically I didn't really know how to feel about it, but my mom was hurting so I was hurting for her at least. Things calmed down slightly except for the fact that I've yet to find another job because no one is really hiring right now. I ended up breaking up with my boyfriend of five years because he was trying to pressure me into sex (and he's still living in my house, and whether he's doing it consciously or not he's been trying to make me feel bad about breaking up with him). My mom had to go get cat-scans done and I still don't know the results of those. I forgot the words to a song during a singing competition and felt utterly humiliated... and this morning I got a speeding ticket because my speedometer is broken, and I didn't know I was going so fast. If I had a job, it'd be one thing, but now I'm not sure I'm going to be able to pay it, and it's really frustrating me. I still owe money to my accompanist for playing for me in the competition I totally fucked up in, and I don't know where all this money's gonna fucking come from... I still have to buy fucking Christmas presents!

Ugh.

I just...

I need something good to happen. I can't keep taking all of this stuff on. If this kind of stuff keeps up I'm going to break.

Commissions for fic or art are open again.

Comment or message me if you're interested. I really need the money.
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So, yeah I went and saw Warrior today, and since I've had a few hours to recover from being asdfghjkl;, I can tell you guys what I thought (though I'm sure since I was going asdfghjkl;, you can already pretty much figure it out.

under the cut since I will probably spoil some things )

50/50

May. 28th, 2011 04:48 pm
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Okay, so I just saw the trailer for JGL's new movie with Seth Rogan called 50/50 in which he's a 27-year-old who's diagnosed with cancer.

Yeah...

Uh...

Am I gonna cry? A lot?

I'm thinking yes. Poor bbdimpleface all sick. This movie is going to kill me.
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I'm so disappointed.

I was so close to getting to meet him. My dad got to meet one of the trumpet players in his band and took him a copy of the drawing I made for him with a note, hoping to get some kind of response, but... well, nothing happened. I'm so sad.

I'm going to sound really cheesy right now, and really dumb, but a lot of people don't understand just what Jason Mraz means to me. His music has helped me get through some really, really tough times, and I just wanted so badly to thank him for existing, for putting a little light in my darkness even when he didn't know he was doing it. When I'm down and out, I can listen to his music and it reminds me that things are going to turn out okay. That's power, right there.

So, yeah, I'm really disappointed because I've been so close and let down twice. I mean, I can hold a little solace in the fact that he knows I exist, but I really wanted to just talk to him. I'm not some creepy stalker or anything. I just wanted him to know my story and know just how much I appreciated everything that he does. He's not just a wonderful musician, but he's also a wonderful person, and I just wish I could tell him.

That was really all I wanted.

...So, I'm SAD. Somebody cheer me up. D:
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I just got back from a Sara Bareilles concert.

Oh. My. GOD. YOU GUYS.

It was quite possibly the best thing in my entire life. It was the best thing ever. Oh my god. I don't have words.

SHE ACKNOWLEDGED ME YOU GUYS. SHE GIGGLED AT ME AND ACKNOWLEDGED SOMETHING I SAID.



SHE SANG COLDPLAY'S YELLOW, YOU GUYS.

I was just all
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My laptop won't work. I don't know what happened to it. It was fine at school, and I go out to the car, go to turn it on (so I can work on the first chapter of the Bite Hard sequel), and... it doesn't turn on. The light turns green, but nothing else happens. I close it. The light stays green. Still nothing happens. I go home and plug it in, and still nothing happens.

I'm freaking out.

It's a Sony Vaio, and it's still fucking NEW, so I shouldn't be having this problem. I'm scared it's some kind of virus, by my computer has virus protection and has shown absolutely no signs of having a virus. I really don't know what to do.

Computer people, can you help me? I have a philosophy study guide on there that I need to look at intensely before the test tomorrow (NOT TO MENTION ALL THE OTHER STUFF I HAVE ON THERE).
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Title: Bite Hard (part 10)
Author: osaki_nana_707
Word count: ~3,600
Pairings/Characters: ArthurxEames, Yusuf, Ariadne
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: language, age difference/underage, dub-con
Summary: AU. Sixteen year old Arthur wakes up in another man's apartment.

Eames had felt his stomach drop the moment Arthur hung up on him, a horrible gut feeling nearly identical to the one he'd had the night Roxanne had died. )

Here's Part 10. Get out your tissues. It's a doozy. I almost cried while writing this.

Also, the song used in this chapter is called "Falling" by Florence and the Machine. You can find it on YouTube. It's a beautiful song and really adds to it when listening while reading.

ONLY ONE MORE PART LEFT YOU GUYS. OH MY GOD.

D:

Mar. 14th, 2011 03:27 pm
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I'm so down right now.

...

Yeah.

Like this:

Real Crying Pictures, Images and Photos
crying hug Pictures, Images and Photos
Pikachu crying Pictures, Images and Photos
Emma Pictures, Images and Photos
sad kurt Pictures, Images and Photos
Lion King SAD GIF IS SAD Pictures, Images and Photos

At least that's me on the inside.

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